Dive. Dive into the cool depth where it is dark and calm. My head is pulsating, ringing, and tired. I want to sleep and eat and rest and move and do nothing. Any action feels like a burden. So now I will simply try to dive with no sense of direction. What would usually terrify me feels honestly refreshing. I feel like I am scrapping away a build up of gunk and muk. Headspace that feels fat and squishy. It seems to be ending now. I am coming back up for air and reality. It was a nice break I suppose.
(Written in Feb. 2020)
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